The Craftea Cottage: All Aboard the Struggle Bus

Good Wednesday Morning! I am struggling. I am sure I am not the only person in the world who struggles sometimes. Yes, I realized that last time I missed a post I wrote about how I am a human and you should take time for yourself and blah blah blah. Yes, this is true and you should take time for yourself. However, I am having difficulty prioritizing the things I need to do. Throughout college, I was a huge procrastinator (admittedly I still am). I would wait until the last minute (usually 2 ish hours before the assignment was due) to START the assignment. Now, sometimes I was on top of things and I spent time researching and taking the necessary steps to not stress myself out and get the assignment done in a reasonable amount of time. But eight times out of ten I was stressing myself out trying to finish a 10 page paper on a book a hadn't read. If you have been with me through this blogging journey or you know me personally, or I spent many a night doing this exact scenario in your house (thank you, you're awesome and I appreciate you) you know I got a degree in history.

For those who are unaware, history is A LOT of reading and writing. Which I have said I love many times on this blog and to people who didn't know me then. However, in college with all those assignments, I HATED reading and writing. The books were long and boring and the papers were hard to write. I had literally anything else I wanted to do. So I did and left the paper writing to later. Looking back this is a terrible idea... but it's how I function. Sometimes I am organized and on top of it and sometimes I am freaking out about a deadline and I forget about everything else (even other deadlines).

I think of these blog posts as deadlines because I said I was going to post one every Wednesday (and if I can get on top of that and get a good following behind me maybe post two a week). However, I have missed two Wednesdays completely and my last blog post was posted on a Friday. This month (March) has been crazy as far as organization and getting things done. It was my boyfriend's birthday month and I don't have a lot of money so I decided to make him something instead of buying it. I made him a cute little scrapbook/journal thing that took forever to make. Enter my inability to prioritize. I put his gift above everything else I had to do this month: my blog, my YouTube, my pen pals, etc. I still did things. I couldn't work on the gift when he was around but I didn't work on the things I needed to either. It is very frustrating but I am incapable of changing my mindset sometimes.

Where am I going with this you ask? That is a great question... I don't know. I am sitting at my computer with my second cup of coffee (by the time this is posted it will probably be closer to the fifth cup mark) watching the clock so I make it to work on time. I guess what I am trying to get at is everyone is different. (Duh Tuesdae, everyone is different.) No, my point is, everyone functions differently. Everyone's brains work differently. I go through bouts where I am the most organized person in a 100-mile radius which inevitably is on cycle with a hot minute of the worst unorganized mess you have ever seen. During these times of unorganization, I look at other people and become jealous and upset. I think to myself "why can't I be organized?" "Why am I struggling to keep up with these tasks that I could do two weeks ago with no problem?" "When will this end and I can be on top of my game like they are?" I start beating myself up because my brain isn't functioning the same way as someone else's who can wake up and have one (or even no) cup of coffee and be a functional human being ALL DAY! (We ran out of coffee once in my house... once.)

Everyone functions differently. Everyone has different ways to get stuff done. If you're messy and unorganized but you still got up and got something done, that is okay! Stop comparing yourself to other people who look like they have it all together. They aren't better than you, they just function differently from you. If everyone functioned the same way, this planet would be quite boring and we would all look like robots. It's okay if you are extremely organized and have everything just the way you want it. It's okay if you are moderately organized and don't have it all worked out yet. It's okay if on the outside everything you're doing looks like a mess because inside you are handling it like a boss!

Don't let other people change your opinion of yourself. You are doing an amazing job!

This week in Creative Corner:

Well, it's really been this month. I've been working on my boyfriend's birthday gift. I am working on making a flip-through video of it for YouTube, so keep an eye out for it! This is the longest project I've had in a while. It included "our story according to me:2017" and some pictures of us and pictures from people around the world and various other fun things. Here are a couple pictures of it.